I feel like I know...

OK, so yesterdays blog left off with me being really confused about my relationship with James and wondering to myself, "Do I want to spend the rest of my life with this person?" Last night after much talk with Jessica, I decided that I really needed to talk with James (who was at a friends house again so I had to wait until he got home). I started the conversation with "I want to go to college" he said "That's great!" I went into further detail by explaining that I didn't want to have to chip away at getting a degree, and that I would need to quit my current job and go to school full-time. He said that we would find a way to make that happen. I guess the conversation just went the total opposite way of how I thought that it was going to go and I was so happy that he said he would back me 100% and do whatever he needed to do to help me through this. I guess people really can surprise you sometimes. The only issues that I have with this is that right now it feels like I have to have my job with free health insurance and steady paycheck to keep our house, pay our bills, and keep our family fed. We will have to see how James' test goes for being a meter specialist or possibly even getting an apprentice position for the electric part of his company. Or, I can look into a part time position ... somewhere. My boss revealed to me today that she is not going to be my boss next year. She is leaving our school and returning to the classroom. I really feel like at this point, that is really a sign that it is time for me to move on as well. I don't want to be an office assistant forever. I hate working for the man for peanuts and being treated like dirt (not by everyone, but by many). I would like to have a college degree to achieve full-on independence. So that I don't have to worry about what would happen to me without James. I can't do it without him, I would be left with that house and all of those bills and there would be no way for me to do it alone. If I have a college education then I have so many more options. A High School diploma just doesn't get you anywhere anymore, you might get your foot in the door, but that is as far as you're going to get.